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Car in the Mud

Seriously so incredibly restless these past few weeks.  It's one of those restless feelings that you know mean you need a break, need a vacation, need a change...without that it won't go away.  I've been hoping that I can push through this feeling until Christmas break.  After all, I have exams and projects I need to get through.  Unfortunately, despite the one or two days a week I have that are full of positive energy and productivity, I still struggle with pushing through.  Something is buried deep in me, some idea, and it is trying to surface.  Perhaps blogging will help. I used the title 'car in the mud' as it is an accurate analogy of where my head, and heart, is at.  Driving along, coasting almost, enjoying life, the scenery, and the company of those in my vehicle of life.  All of a sudden the car lurches to a stop- somehow, without me noticing, I've driven directly into a huge puddle of mud.  It's so sticky, and when I try to drive o...

Stuck

Should be studying for midterms, should be cleaning, should be working. All that means is that it is a perfect time to write and sort some thoughts out. I have been so incredibly stuck lately. I have been stuck in nearly every sense you could imagine, except for the obvious- physically. I haven't gotten stuck in the mud, or caught in the rain or anything like that. I guess the mud and rain could go hand in hand, especially with it being such a rainy autumn here. However, I have been stuck in many other aspects. Stuck in: my writing, my head, school, anxiety, and fear. I have become someone I didn't think was possible. I have become someone I don't know when I look in the mirror. Who is that girl looking back? The one that looks so beautiful but doesn't believe it. The girl that looks put together and happy and thriving. I truly don't recognize her. I don't recognize her because I don't feel any of it. I've reached that point in my life whe...

Two Places

Between two places That is where I am Which one is home? I don't know anymore I'm just between two places I feel like I have nowhere to go But everywhere At the same time I'm just between two places I'm in a place of myself