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Disclaimer: I was going through some old blogs and found this one, sitting unpublished. I know why it was unpublished. I know why it, maybe, should stay unpublished. But, alas, here we are. This is a few years old, but as I re-read it, I saw some beauty in it. Some great lessons and learnings. And beauty in the love. So, I published it. Because maybe someone else will relate. Maybe it will connect with someone. Maybe it won't. But here it is.  We all know the story- guy meets girl (or guy meets guy...or girl meets girl...you get the idea). They date.  They fall "in love."  Most of them break-up, some stay together.  How is this story any different than a break-up so many of us experience in our lifetime? I'm not sure it is, but I know for me it has been an active process of reflection and trying to piece my life back together. Nearly 3 years spent together, with trips to NYC, Pennsylvania, San Francisco, and Vancouver, gifts given, tears shed, laughter and smil...

We all have been taught from a young age the value of communication, and good communication at that.  But what is communication?  Better yet, what is good communication?? Communication can take many forms, all of them falling under a category of either verbal or non-verbal.  It is the ability to send messages, convey information, and/or use actions to relay information or establish a point. That being said, we use communication every day.  We use it when we order food or drinks, we communicate when we say 'hello' or 'goodbye' and it is shaped by our tone of voice, our body language, and the format of any sentence.  So what is good communication?  Are we always expected to be able to communicate in a good manner? I'm not so sure.

New year, new goals. For so many of us, our goals or 'resolutions' created every new year quickly dissipate.  I'm not sure if it lack of focus, lack of time, lack of determination or simply slacking.  It doesn't truly matter why so many of us cannot follow through on our goals, at least that isn't my point.  My point is that many of us enter every new year with a new goal, a new outlook...striving for improvement, for change. And for once, I'm excited. I'm not going to rehash my 2012 year for you- it was the standard ups and downs and you all can relate in your own way.  Rather I want to focus on the future.  One of my biggest goals is to conquer my anxiety and kick it to the curb.  I am so tired of it controlling many aspects of my life.  I want to live again.  I want to stop the doubt, the fear, the uncertainty, and the worrying.  The past 4 and a half months have been eye opening for me, and I feel like I've already come so far.  I...

It's been a long few months.  School has kept me busy, and then work as well.  If you really want to, you could throw in my continuous failed attempts at finding a boyfriend.  Simply put, life has happened.  School is school.  Work is work.  Boys are boys.  Life is life. Since September though, I like to think I've come a long way as an individual.  I've learned more about myself in the past two to three months than I thought was possible.  I'm slowly growing consequently, and discovering new things about myself.  I know now how much I can handle when I need to.  I also know now that there are a lot of times I think I can handle a lot, but I can't.  And I also learned it really is okay to ask for help. Nothing monumental has occurred in the past little while, but the thoughts and self-discovery has felt huge. The thoughts and emotions have been like a stream, slowly and continuously trickling between rocks.