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Seriously so incredibly restless these past few weeks.  It's one of those restless feelings that you know mean you need a break, need a vacation, need a change...without that it won't go away.  I've been hoping that I can push through this feeling until Christmas break.  After all, I have exams and projects I need to get through.  Unfortunately, despite the one or two days a week I have that are full of positive energy and productivity, I still struggle with pushing through.  Something is buried deep in me, some idea, and it is trying to surface.  Perhaps blogging will help. I used the title 'car in the mud' as it is an accurate analogy of where my head, and heart, is at.  Driving along, coasting almost, enjoying life, the scenery, and the company of those in my vehicle of life.  All of a sudden the car lurches to a stop- somehow, without me noticing, I've driven directly into a huge puddle of mud.  It's so sticky, and when I try to drive o...

Love is a complicated emotion, but some kinds of love are more challenging, and more difficult than others.  This evening I was reminded of that difficult kind of love, once again.  It happens every once in awhile, though it seems to be more frequent lately.  I know my love will never falter, I know it is true.  I also know that it is perhaps more challenging than some other loves, and that it drains me even on the best of days, let alone how I know it tramples me on my bad days. In order to continue, some explanation is necessary. Some of you that follow my blog know me personally, and know about my family.  Others of you don't know the dynamics.  In order for this post to make much sense, if any, I need to explain a portion of this dynamic. I have a twin brother, along with two older siblings (5 years older, and 10 years older).  My parents split when I was in elementary school, and my older siblings (due to age) moved out shortly after they split...