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Jealously

Jealously seems to be befriending me lately - but why?
I have family and friends who love me and a roof over my head
I have food, clothes, and items just for me
Why then is jealously befriending me?

I find them most when I want something but don't need it
Yet I know I don't need it, so why is jealously befriending me?

I don't like them much, they make me think of ways that I wish not to think
I don't want to be desperate, rude or pathetic
But that's what this relationship does to me
Why must you keep appearing at times I don't want you to?

Stop befriending me!

I don't want you in my presence,
You make me think things I shouldn't
I don't need this, I have all the things I need already

So jealously stop befriend me!
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