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Jealously seems to be befriending me lately - but why? I have family and friends who love me and a roof over my head I have food, clothes, and items just for me Why then is jealously befriending me? I find them most when I want something but don't need it Yet I know I don't need it, so why is jealously befriending me? I don't like them much, they make me think of ways that I wish not to think I don't want to be desperate, rude or pathetic But that's what this relationship does to me Why must you keep appearing at times I don't want you to? Stop befriending me! I don't want you in my presence, You make me think things I shouldn't I don't need this, I have all the things I need already So jealously stop befriend me!

It is the beginning of October, and my life is slowly becoming chaotic. I have 15 hours of class crammed into two days, volunteering 3-5 hours a week, am looking for a job that will allow me to work 12-16 hours a week, and am trying to maintain a social life between friends, family, and my boyfriend. Did I mention that midterms begin in two weeks? Last May I made a list of things I wanted to accomplish over the summer. I was able to cross everything off of my list, except for one thing: "Rediscover motivation." It would have been great for me to accomplish that, as that is where I am currently struggling. My life would be so much easier if I had motivation. I already have the organizational skills, and the time to do everything. So what does motivation consist of anyways? As much as I do not like to consult in Wikipedia, it actually has my favourite description of motivation: "Motivation is the activation of goal-oriented behavior. Motivation is said to be intrinsic o...