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For those of you that haven't had the chance yet, take the time to read my first post on vulnerability from a few months back  Vulnerability Part 1 .  I've had an interesting past few weeks and the weather, I'm sure, has been a large reason for my wandering -and most likely over analzyed- thoughts. But I digress. I don't know about the rest of you out there, but I'm someone that has an innate need to be accepted.  Even once I feel accepted by people, I need to then make sure that I hold some importance in their life.  However, I don't go and try to be accepted, nor do I try and be important...I simply wait anxiously for it to happen.  I wait to matter, and let it consume my mind in the meantime. Does it need to change?  Of course.  I recognize it isn't exactly healthy and it is something I should work on.  But right now, I'm sticking with acknowledging it.  I'm also acknowledging that most of my waiting anxiously is from my lack of vulnerab...

New year, new goals. For so many of us, our goals or 'resolutions' created every new year quickly dissipate.  I'm not sure if it lack of focus, lack of time, lack of determination or simply slacking.  It doesn't truly matter why so many of us cannot follow through on our goals, at least that isn't my point.  My point is that many of us enter every new year with a new goal, a new outlook...striving for improvement, for change. And for once, I'm excited. I'm not going to rehash my 2012 year for you- it was the standard ups and downs and you all can relate in your own way.  Rather I want to focus on the future.  One of my biggest goals is to conquer my anxiety and kick it to the curb.  I am so tired of it controlling many aspects of my life.  I want to live again.  I want to stop the doubt, the fear, the uncertainty, and the worrying.  The past 4 and a half months have been eye opening for me, and I feel like I've already come so far.  I...