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Ruts

It's been a long time since anything has been posted.  Far too long.  Life has been busy.  Exams, got a job, quit the job, grandma died, found two new jobs, contemplated a relationship, dismissed another, and now currently visiting my sister in BC. I felt in such need of a vacation.  I don't really have the money to afford it, but I don't feel the need to spend money either.  Life had been draining for too long, and I had been stuck in a rut. I lacked motivation and desire to get out of bed, and then once out of bed I did not want to do anything but sit and watch time go by.  I had a hard time cooking food and only ate when I began to feel weak, for the sake of eating.  The days had blended into one another so well. I couldn't figure things out that I wanted to figure out.  I was truly stuck in a rut.  I wanted to understand why I reacted the way I did to my Grandmother's death.  I wanted to understand why I felt an overwhelming