Day by Day AS ...

What else is there to say? Doesn't 'topsy turvey' say it all??? It happens when everything feels so out of place, or you feel so disconnected from everything else. Nothing is right, yet everything is perfect. What way is up, and what way is down? What is right, and what is wrong? What is an opinion, and what is a fact? Are your feelings real? Justified? Or is it just a mind game? Do you know yourself well enough to figure out what is real and what isn't? My mind can't stop racing. This Christmas vacation, a time of family, friends, love, laughter and giving, it has been so different than I ever anticipated. Decisions I have to make, being torn between friends, being tugged by my heart in different directions... many things are not as simple as they seem to be, or as anticipated. This vacation has been so full of bumps and holes and unexpected heartache, pain, and hurt. What makes it all worse is that I thought I knew myself. When things such as this happe...

It's been quite awhile since anything has been posted, especially by me. I have been incredibly busy with midterms, finals and projects. The past month I have pretty much lived in a hole. I haven't seen many of my friends, or if I have it has been for an extremely short period of time. Even my boyfriend... it is a long distance relationship, and he keeps having to come here to see me. I haven't been up to his place in a month. I know school is my priority- I need to do well, but sometimes I can't help but feel like I'm not doing things right. Something feels off. I think maybe it might be related to the fact that I almost lost my friends a year ago. I was in a relationship that took up my entire time- it took me away from my school, my friends, my family and myself. I lost myself. My outlook on life became quite negative, and this past summer allowed me to become positive again. That relationship is behind me, and I'm back to my smiling self. I know ...