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Opening oneself is a challenge. It's just as much a challenge opening oneself to others as it is to being completely honest with ourselves. Opening ourselves to others is a scary thing. You may want to show this person more of you, but are scared. And with good reason. What if that person isn't who you think they are, or want them to be? Then what? So, you have to trust them. You yourself are able to decide who you trust, and how much you trust them. Yet, trust too is a scary thing. Trust is so powerful and means so much when it exists. Yet one word, one action, one thought can change all of that. It only takes an instant for everything to crumble. Trust is so fragile; so how do you build it with someone? It needs to be built upon a stable foundation. But then, what's a stable foundation? Nothing is cut and dry in this world. Black and white situations do not exist. This only furthers ones fear of opening ourselves to others, to strangers. As time goes on, I ...

1. I am a huge hypocrite. I don’t like that about myself, and am trying to fix it. I am trying to take my own advice instead of making excuses.  2. I’m scared of change. I generally only show it behind closed doors.  3. I love to smile and laugh. A lot.  4. My family is huge to me. My closest friends included. If you cannot accept them, we will probably have a problem.  5. One of my biggest fears is disappointing others, but I’m even more scared of disappointing myself.  6. I tend to care too much about what other people think of me.  7. I can get kind of crazy, but in a good way.  8. I enjoy most- if not all- sports. I love spending hours tossing around a football or kicking a soccer ball around.  9. I believe that there is a huge difference between loving someone and being in love with someone.  10. I love to help. I wish I was able to help out in a more meaningful way more often.  11. I’m really quiet when I first meet new people, but...

One word. That's all it is. That's all it takes. One single solitary word. How one word can mean so much astounds me sometimes. Taken straight from the Merriam-Webster Dictionary, disappointment means to disappoint, which in turn means "to fail to meet the expectation or hope of." Growing up I always worried about disappointing my parents. Who didn't? There was ones own education, how they treated others, how one handled their responsibilities, whether they did the right thing or not, appearance...the list goes on. For me, I always worried about disappointing my mom the most. She's a great lady. Works two jobs to provide for my siblings and I, listens and gives herself wholeheartedly to those in need.. she's a beautiful individual and to disappoint her would be the worst thing possible. But you see, it wasn't until recently that I realized that the worst is when you disappoint yourself. We all have goals and expectations for ourselves, both con...